light on a rainy day

sunshine payback


“What makes night within us may leave stars.” ~Victor Hugo

Charity Dean

“Everyone has a story they tell themselves about themselves. Even if they don’t explicitly acknowledge it, their minds are at work retelling or editing or updating a narrative that explains or excuses why they have spent their time on earth as they have.” -Michael Lewis, The Premonition


‘“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo.

“So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”’

The Fellowship of the Ring by J. R. R. Tolkien


“He stared into my eyes for a moment, then said, ‘The past is like water that flows into a river, you can’t bring it back with a shovel.’” -Qais Akbar Omar, A Fort of Nine Towers

the lethal triad

“We are all recovering from something substantial.” -u/FrankieandMyrrh


“Self pity is the worst disease.” -Alberto, via Eder Holguin in Dreaming of Hope Street

Deception Pass

“Once you stop fighting for what you want, what you don’t want will automatically take over.” –Les Brown

Crossing the Rubicon

“Well I’m the enemy of treason
Enemy of strife
I’m the enemy of the unlived meaningless life
I ain’t no false prophet
I just know what I know
I go where only the lonely can go.”
-Bob Dylan, False Prophet

illegitimi non carborundum

“When people show you who they are, believe them.” ~Maya Angelou45AE9459-6396-4BC8-A66B-C80D1FDD9FA1“Make me a drink strong enough
To wash away this dishwater world they said was lemonade.
Walk with me after the show
Maybe we can find a way through the minefield in the snow.”
~James Mercer, The Shins



“Get used to the dust in your lungs”

“What makes night within us may leave stars.” ~Victor Hugo

six feet away

“Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on Earth.”

— Muhammad Ali

“a shame you never knew”

“I thank whatever gods may be,
for my unconquerable soul.” ~William Ernest Henley


“You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are.”  — Eckhart Tolle

“So tonight that I might see”

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Trounce this!

“when the world comes crashing at your feet
it’s okay to let others
help pick up the pieces
if we’re present to take part in your happiness
when your circumstances are great
we are more than capable
of sharing your pain”

-Rupi Kaur

Mary Oliver: the bride married to amazement


“When death comes
like the hungry bear in autumn;
when death comes and takes all the bright coins from his purse

To buy me, and snaps the purse shut;
when death comes
like the measle pox

When death comes
like an iceberg between the shoulder blades,

I want to step through the door full of curiosity, wondering:
what is it going to be like, that cottage of darkness?

And therefore I look upon everything
as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,
and I look upon time as no more than an idea,
and I consider eternity as another possibility,

And I think of each life as a flower, as common
as a field daisy, and as singular,

And each name a comfortable music in the mouth,
tending, as all music does, toward silence,

And each body a lion of courage, and something
precious to the earth.

When it’s over, I want to say all my life
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

When it’s over, I don’t want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.

I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.

I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.”

~Mary Oliver

“damn the dark, damn the light”

EBE6A46C-C953-41BE-880B-5E279E201EFC“Her last words: ‘How can we expect righteousness to prevail when there is hardly anyone willing to give himself up individually to a righteous cause? Such a fine sunny day, and I have to go, but what does my death matter, if through us thousands of people are awakened and stirred to action?'”

Sophie Scholl was executed by the Nazi Party in 1943 for her central role in the student resistance. She was 21.

The Man in the Arena


“Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.”

~William Ernest Henley

Bheka Pierce

“Whatever it was, you feel hushed by its sudden beauty, its ‘thereness’, and you could feel all around you the beauty and sacredness of being alive.” ~Obadiah Fleska


Dies iræ, dies illa
Solvet sæclum in favilla
Teste David cum Sibylla.


“This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.

I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can.

I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no “brief candle” for me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.”

–George Bernard Shaw

O Muse!

“Pete, it’s a fool that looks for logic in the chambers of the human heart.” ~O Brother, Where Art Thou?

“Boy, you got a greyness in your eyes that reminds me I am going to die someday.”

~unknown author from Earlham lit mag, circa 2006


IMG_9566“The road to sustained happiness is through disciplining your behavior.” –Will Smith

euphemisms mask fear

06C2C93F-6FA5-4DAD-8248-E2F2963D0BA7“And when the darkness comes for me
To take me where I’m meant to be –
To guide me out beyond the black,
Forever on,
and never back –
To lead me through the final door
Till all that is and was before
Is nothing more than dreams at night –

I will not fret.

I will not fight.”

by u/Poem_for_your_sprog

the sweetness and the stalk

heliotropic“Taking the easy way out or telling the truth —  those are not merely two different choices. They are different pathways through life. They are utterly different ways of existing.” ~Jordan B. Peterson


“Pain is temporary. It may last for a minute, or an hour, or a day, or even a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit however, it will last forever.”~Eric Thomas


IMG_8456.JPG“Her advice to me was simply ‘People take their cue from you.’ That’s it. If you act like you belong in the room, people will believe that you do. If you act like your opinion matters, others will too. Simple, true, empowering, and life-changing advice. It is applicable for all women in every endeavor we undertake.”

-Jennifer Palmieri, Dear Madam President

“Silence = Death”

“‘We may take refuge in our stereotypes,’ she said, ‘but we cannot hide there long. Because HIV asks only one thing of those it attacks: Are you human? And this is the right question — are you human? People with HIV have not entered some alien state of being. They are human. They have not earned cruelty and do not deserve meanness. They don’t benefit from being isolated or treated as outcasts. Each of them is exactly what God made: a person, not evil, deserving of our judgment; not victims, longing for our pity.'” – Mary Fisher via David France in How to Survive a Plague.

“History doesn’t repeat itself, but it often rhymes.” -Mark Twain

“brain on fire”

“The existence of forgetting has never been proved: we only know that some things do not come to our mind when we want them to.” -Friedrich Nietzsche

and so here now

“Joe’s got a cough, sounds kinda rough,
Yeah, and the codeine to fix it.
Doctor prescribes, drug store supplies,
Who’s gonna help him to kick it.”-Keith Richards/ Mick Jagger, Torn And Frayed

“comfortably numb”

“If all you can do is crawl, start crawling.”-Rumi

“do I still figure in your life?”

IMG_7546“The problem, however, eventually became evident: to make science the arbiter of metaphysics is to banish not only God from the world but also love, hate, meaning — to consider a world that is self-evidently not the world we live in.  That’s not to say that if you believe in meaning, you must also believe in God. It is to say, though, that if you believe that science provides no basis for God, then you are almost obligated to conclude that science provides no basis for meaning and, therefore, life itself doesn’t have any.”–Paul Kalanithi, When Breath Becomes Air

fall seven, rise eight

“Women matter. Women are half of us. When you raise every woman to believe that we are insignificant, that we are broken, that we are sick, that the only cure is starvation and restraint and smallness; when you pit women against one another, keep us shackled by shame and hunger, obsessing over our flaws rather than our power and potential; when you leverage all of that to sap our money and our time — that moves the rudder of the world. It steers humanity toward conservatism and walls and the narrow interests of men, and it keeps us adrift in waters where women’s safety and humanity are secondary to men’s pleasure and convenience.”~ Lindy West, Shrill

“the universe is full of fuel”

“Werner lunges for Volkheimer’s rifle. All your life you wait, and then it finally comes, and are you ready?”–All the Light We Cannot See, Anthony Doerr

get free

“what is stronger
than the human heart
which shatters over and over
and still lives”-rupi kaur

After all the befores

“It’s the question that drives us mad.” 

~The Matrix

that’s a damn fine cup of coffee

we shall overcomeIMG_7211 “For the judgments you give will be the judgments you will get, and the amount you measure out is the amount you will be given. Why do you observe the splinter in your brother’s eye and never notice the plank in your own? Take the plank out of your own eye first, and then you will see clearly enough to take the splinter out of your brother’s eye.”

over and next

P1010400.jpg“Those who have a ‘why’ to live, can bear with almost any ‘how’.” -Viktor Frankl

I knew you’d take all my honey

img_5031“Face to face with the man who sold the world.” -Nirvana

0-8-4: cracks my heart open wide

“And I opened my heart to the whole universe, and I found it was loving. And I saw the great blunder my teachers had made, scientific delirium madness.”

-The Byrds


“Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence.” –H. D. Thoreau

nuclear mellao


“they say you can’t control yourself/ you go along/ independence gone” -plateau

*evaluate, reroute; expose, develop*


“I want to be the girl with the most cake.” -hole
“The unfed mind devours itself.”

-G. Vidal

“soul kitchen”

“There is a voice that doesn’t use words. Listen.” –Rumi


IMG_4928“Face your demons, then harness them.” –Jeanette Walls

What have you done, and what will you do?

switch to southpaw

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.” -Eleanor Roosevelt


“A human being is not one thing among others; things determine each other, but man is ultimately self-determining. What he becomes–within the limits of endowment and environment–he has made out of himself. In the concentration camps, for example, in this living laboratory and on this testing ground, we watched and witnessed some of our comrades behave like swine while others behaved like saints. Man has both potentialities within himself; which one is actualized depends on decisions but not on conditions.”

“Our generation is realistic, for we have come to know man as he really is. After all, man is that being who invented the gas chambers of Auschwitz; however, he is also that being who entered the gas chambers upright, with the Lord’s Prayer  or the Shema Yisrael on his lips.”
-Viktor Frankl

into the ether


“If it makes you nervous, you’re doing it right.” –Childish Gambino


my heart is like a wheel

“Thou shalt not disfigure the soul.”
-Frank Herbert

“funtimes in babylon”

“I would like to abuse my lungs
Smoke everything inside with every girl I’ve ever loved
Ride around the wreckage on a horse knee-deep in blood”
-Josh Tillman

bab“questioning morality is an antidote to insecurity” – SW

“heartbreak moves like a snake through the grass”


“I see us giving love to each other in a time of quiet between storms. It is what we were meant to do.” -F.H.



“Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has power, genius, and magic in it.”




“When you think the night has seen your mind/
That inside you’re twisted and unkind/
Let me stand to show that you are blind/
Please put down your hands/
‘Cause I see you/
I’ll be your mirror”
-Velvet Underground and Nico



“Our real journey in life is interior: it is a matter of growth, of deepening, of an ever great surrender to the creative action of love and grace in our hearts. Never was it more necessary for us to respond to that action.”

-Thomas Merton


IMG_3349“My predominant feeling is one of gratitude. I have loved and been loved. I have been given much and I have given something in return. Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has ben an enormous privilege and adventure.”

-Oliver Sacks, the one who inspired.

P.S. Thank you, Vanessa, for the award which made my day yet I have so abysmally failed to properly accept! I am very grateful and hope to some day soon accept the challenge. For now, time allows only a sincere thank you. Keep up the great work on your end!

and bob’s your uncle!


“I am the Ghost of Christmas Future Imperfect Conditional, said the Spirit. I bring news of what would have been going to happen, if you were not to have been going to change your ways.”

“Si ojos tienen que no me vean; si manos tienen que no me agarren; no permitas que me sorprendan por la espalda; no permitas que mi muerte sea violenta; no permitas que mi sangre se derrame; Tú que todo lo conoces, sabes de mis pecados, pero también sabes de mi fe, no me desampares, Amén.” – Jorge Franco

k 165


“I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by conscious endeavor.”
            -Henry David Thoreau

port of morrow

“a preacher on a stage like a buzzard cries
out a warning of phony sorrow, he’s trying to get a rise”


“The other thing we do is we make everything that’s uncertain certain. Religion has gone from a belief in faith and mystery to certainty. “I’m right, you’re wrong. Shut up.” That’s it. Just certain. The more afraid we are, the more vulnerable we are, the more afraid we are. This is what politics looks like today. There’s no discourse anymore. There’s no conversation. There’s just blame. You know how blame is described in the research? A way to discharge pain and discomfort.” -Brené Brown

strange you never knew


“I will not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it is gone, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone, there will be nothing.

Only I will remain.”

-Frank Herbert

the only one who could ever reach me was

lost highway


press on

“My religion has something to do with compost.”

–Ann Elridge

killed in action


Was totally played at work this week, stabbed in the gut. How could he? I trusted him! My mentor pushed me to move beyond my bitterness and hurt, and now I’ve come around to forgiveness. Heroin is an ugly mistress.

“Life itself is your teacher, and you are in a state of constant learning.” -Bruce Lee


you got a greyness in your eyes that reminds me I am going to die someday.”

–From a poem I read in Earlham College Literary Magazine in 2005 or 2006. I cannot find the poem or a copy of the magazine to give the author credit by name. 


on the road

“You, who are on the road, must have a code that you can live by.”

Tell me, friends, what are your codes?

no safety or surprise

dies irae, dies illa

Just got some good news about a leadership position with a Seattle medical organization for the homeless, so excited! Next step, start the process of becoming a licensed Spanish medical interpreter. Any interpreters (or translators) out there, medical or otherwise? Any advice for becoming licensed or interpreting itself?

to begin with the end in mind

‘Yet there’s no one to beat you, no one to defeat you, except for the thoughts of yourself feeling bad.’ –Bob Dylan

sea change

I feel like I ripped out my aorta and shoved it up my esophagus.  Other times, it’s less bad.

this is the place where time reverses

ventilator blues

the lightness of being


Sometimes I get tired of setting goals. I wish the baby downstairs would shut up and that you would come to me in the dark on the balcony with the blinds closed.

revenge is a dish best served cold

Can’t we just forget the past?

free fall


“Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
With your one wild and precious life?”

-Mary Oliver

To Ramona


A difficult decision approaches, and everyone has plenty of conflicting advice about the ‘correct’ course of action. Ultimately, I must make my own choice, and I think I know that the best path is the uncertain, riskier one rather than the safe one. Friends of WordPress, have you ever faced a tricky dilemma? How did you gain insight? How did you find courage to take action?

fuzzy navel

IMG_1605 From the archives–no new photo this week because I slashed my finger open on a piece of glass. Blood everywhere. Now waiting until the stitches get taken out so I can move my right middle finger again. Could have been worse, but can’t help disliking being injured.

I’m not there

“The world is like a ride in an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it you think it’s real because that’s how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills and it’s very brightly colored and it’s very loud and it’s fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time and they begin to question: “Is this real, or is this just a ride?” And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, they say, “Hey, don’t worry, don’t be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride.” And we kill those people.”

-Bill Hicks

Long time no see

Felt flustered, hadn’t seen him for nearly a decade.  Midterms around the bend, and now I’d been underprepared and overwhelmed. Vomit sauce.

Life as a House


 George: You know the great thing, though, is that change can be so constant you don’t even feel the difference until there is one. It can be so slow that you don’t even know your life is better, or worse, until it is. Or it can just blow you away, making you something different in an instant. It happened to me. 



First time using an ND8 filter, which didn’t allow for quite the length of exposure I was hoping for. Taken with Olympic PEN E-PL1. Sensor still needs cleaning.

Weekly Photo Challenge: Blur

A repost of my original image from almost three years earlier, “Celeste & Renzo

“You should learn how to say no!”


I blinked and the week was over–what a blur. Stopped on the way home after a tough day at Seattle Children’s Hospital. 

“Yes, I feel like I’m dying from mining for gold”

the brink

“The center cannot hold”


Saint Edward’s State Park

Unwinding after surviving pathophysiology, pharmacology, and care in illness final exams.

energy is neither created nor destroyed


Jemma Simmons: I like to think about the first law of thermodynamics, that no energy in the universe is created and… none is destroyed.
Jemma SimmonsLeo Fitz: None is destroyed.
[Both smile]
Jemma Simmons: That means that every bit of energy inside us, every particle will go on to be a part of something else. Maybe live as a dragonfish, a microbe, maybe burn in a supernova ten billion years from now. And every part of us now was once a part of some other thing – a moon, a storm cloud, a mammoth.
Leo Fitz: A monkey.
Jemma Simmons: [Smiles] A monkey. Thousands and thousands of other beautiful things that were just as terrified to die as we are. We gave them new life. Good one, I hope.

franklin falls




Weekly Photo Challenge: Threshold


“relief is palpable”

i can see for miles and miles





washington rainforest

washington rainforest



this tree is on fire

“People say we got it made. Don’t they know we’re so afraid?”

sunny in seattle

the bliss of bees

just south of north

just south of north


lake union

lake union

my heart’s not in it

my heart's not in it

waterfront #15

waterfront #15

long beach, wa

long beach, wa

american masculinity

dub world

leaving fargo

leaving fargo

january 2009

live through this

live through this

520 at 5:20

sweet green

fall candy

And Now for Plateau

Taken at the Skylark Cafe & Club in West Seattle on September 22.

Long post, MAP, and chronological.

Find them here or here!

Or check them out in Olympia on September 29th or at the High Dive in Seattle on October 17th.

“Me Dave, I do.”

brick salute

red eye

afternoon tea


maple leaf placeholder


“now here is also nowhere”*

name from title of upcoming Henry Art Exhibition, photograph unrelated.

coffee in cloud city

stomping grounds


tish facos!

salty foliage dreams…

…float on fumes of angel thought…

…time in mind, feel fine.


sun days




blazing through haze


seattle summer sky cruising




school’s out

school's out

virginia wreckage

virginia wreckage


los vecinitos

blending bees

the slide

el fondo





In Costa Rican Spanish, the word “tuanis” means something like the English “sweet” or “cool”. Since much Spanish slang has been coming from English lately, lots of people believe “too nice” to be the root of “tuanis”. While that’s entertaining, the etymology’s erroneous!

Urban dictionary explains the actual fascinating history (which was verified in Spanish class too):

“2. tuanis 30 up, 11 down
This word was created from a tico slang called Malespín. The costarican army, in the middle of the war with Nicaragua, found that the military orders were intercepted by the “nica” spies. The general Malespín proposed that the letter A was changed by E, the I by O, M to P and T to B.

So Tuanis is the code word from “Buenos” (good, great) in Malespín.

Also “Malos” (bad, evil) is Pelis or Work (“Trabajo”) is “Brete” (“Breteji”, actually. We drop the last two letters with the time).
How was the movie?
Great! (Tuanis!)

That stuff is awesome! (¡Qué tuanis esa vara!)
buy tuanis mugs & shirts
tuanis pelis brete nica malespín tico”

The most tuanis Spanish word is definitely tuanis! Followed closely by guacala.



Nominations for Versatile Blogger Award

Thanks for the Versatile Blogger Award nomination Rob! I’m not sure what the award refers to, but I’m grateful for the exposure (photo pun!). Suggestions for recipients:

  1. Add a photo for the award you received to a blog post.
  2. Link back to your nominating blogger(s) in your post.
  3. Tell us some random stuff about yourself that might not be evident by following your blog.
  4. Nominate some worthy bloggers for the same award you received and leave them a note linking them back to your award post.

Having only begun to follow other bloggers in the last fortnight, it’s thrilled me to have the opportunity to be exposed to such an abundance of inspiring, fresh photographs. I’m jazzed to be able to nominate some spectacular phlogs for the V.B. award. If this is a dub-nom, apologies!

le blog du spectateur sentimentale – the photos of people reveal relatable aspects of human nature, “wedding substance and style”.

doli siregar – trippy, wild, long exposure night shots

brian gaynor – dreamlike scenery, precise capture of beautiful moments

focused moments – landscapes have a sweeping or foreboding atmosphere

mariagiacchino – masters a variety of styles, every detail contributes, sharp, doesn’t waste light

rubicorno – innovative manipulation, successful creation of tone – we can feel photographer’s attitude towards image content

thank you!

Thanks, Rob, for the kind words and nomination for the Versatile Blogger Award! The fresh focus and detailed texture of your photos makes me want to keep following your updates. Check it out, y’all! It’s called “In My View”.




burning through daybreak smog

burning through daybreak smog

“you got a look in your eye when you’re saying goodbye like you wanna say hi”

celeste & renzo


time saver


ledude’s colombian print

from the top, MP

1600 ft stairwell built by Incas

wild orchids over machu picchu

sacsayhuamán – built pre 1500




inca architecture


jesus christ in cusco


Cusco descent


Cusco descent




the remains


buenas vibras










parque del amor

parque del amor

drum dance fire skins galore